too many words, or not enough?

I've tried to balance these lives that we are living
You always feel justified but you never feel forgiving
I woke up one morning to find myself wrapped in the things I swore I'd never touch.
And here I am again trying to save what's left of you and I
So why aren't you satisfied?

I reached out, fell short
Now you're hurt, too many words
Breaking the silence
I felt it, bled it, screamed it,
It only gets worse
And it kills me what's in me too angry for us to survive
I used too many words tonight

I tried to get it right
But I was just wastin' my time
'cause you never compromised when it came to us
We struggle and fall apart we build it back to static start
The endless accusations I can't believe we made it this far.

I reached out, fell short
Now you're hurt, too many words
Breaking the silence,
I felt it, bled it, screamed it,
It only gets worse
And it kills me what's in me too angry for us to survive
I used too many words tonight

Waking alone tomorrow, has gotta be better than this




~So i just really love this song. Too Many Words by Sick Puppies. I know, weird name but they're mad good. And i guess none of it relates to me...only some lines which i bolded and then one of them is my favorite line which i made into italics and bold. but they have nothing to do with any sort of relationship...fyi. obviously that would be impossible to talk about. Oh, and "us" meaning all of us...anyone...just...us.
k byeeeee<3.

trust yourself to trust another.

Tehe, i know, miley cyrus. But her voice is so good in this song (v) and i like the lyrics. And why do i like the lyrics? Ok because it seems like it would be something that happens too often. Trusting someone not to break your heart, or even trusting someone to keep a secret. And then before you know it...it all falls apart and that person isn't even close what they were before. Sometimes it's tempting to tell someone something, even when you know you shouldn't, but you do anyway because you feel close to that person..sometimes for an unknown reason. And as far as the love thing..that's why i agree with one of the things love is, even thought it's hard to define: "Love is giving someone the power to break your heart, but trusting them not too." If you think about it, it really is...not scary...but hard to think about because we almost know that not everyone that comes into our lives is going to be trustworthy, so i think that people should trust themselves that they trust the right people (if that makes sense). If it becomes a mistake, no, we can't always fix it, but regrets shouldn't take place and we have to eventually move on. And we can't always blame ourselves for something like this happening..(i got that out of the last verse because i didn't think it had anything to do with trust, and i know that some people will sit around all mad at themselves because they don't know who to blame but their self, and that last verse just kind of reminded me to get that out there..).

<3megs

These Four Walls by Miley Cyrus :]

These four walls
They whisper to me
They know a secret
I knew they would not keep
Didn't take long for the room to fill with trust
And these four walls come down around us

It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what i meant
Now i wait for a break in the silence, 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

It's hard now to let you be
I won't make excuses
I've made my peace
Didn't take long for me to lose the trust
'Cause these four walls weren't strong enough

It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what i meant
Now i wait for a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

Yeah, it's difficult
Watching us fade
Knowing it's all my fault
My mistake
Yeah, it's difficult
Letting you down
Knowing it's all my fault
You're not around

Leave the memories..alone?

So i pretty much love writing down lyrics for you guys, to my favorite songs<3




So here I am with my thoughts of you
And this world I've left for me
Stoic faces when I think of you
And how I once believed
So now you call me, but you know I won't let you through
I've myself to decieve

So leave the memories alone
I don't want to see
The way it is, as to how it used to be
Leave the memories alone, don't change a thing
And I'll hold you here in my memory

So I find me in your garden now
A sad smile for the scene
And all the flowers that we planted now
Taken by the weeds
But in my minds eye, you know they still bloom for me
They stand tall there, in that summer breeze

Leave the memories alone
I don't want to see
The way it is, as to how it used to be
Leave the memories alone, don't change a thing
And I'll just hold you here in my memory

You'll never change
You'll never change
You will never change



This doesn't apply to me a lot..well kind of. Maybe some of you can figure it out.
Megs<3

You breathed infinity into my world.

I haven't updated in awhile...because I haven't really felt like writing. Because there's nothing to write about. That is, until we get back to drama central on the exact day of september 4th, 2008. But I wanted to post some lyrics to an amazing song<3

They Weren't There by Missy Higgins:

~~You breathed infinity into my world

And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl.

We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night.

Then you said, "wait for me we'll fly the wind,

We'll grow old and you'll be stronger without him" but oh,

Now my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found,

But I was alive and now I've drowned.

So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song

So they can tell me I was wrong...

~~But they weren't there beneath your stare,

And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare of

Any bindings from the world outside that room.

And they weren't taken by the hand

And led through fields of naked land

Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...

So I couldn't say "no".

~~You sighed and I was lost in you, weeks could've past for all I knew.

You were there blanket of the over-world and so I couldn't say,

I wouldn't say "no". But they all said, "you're too young to even know,

Just don't let it grow and you'll be stronger without him"

But oh, now, my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found,

But I was alive and now I've drowned.

So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song

So they can tell me I was wrong...

~~There's just something about this song. I don't know...and the blog wasn't cooperating so i put little "~'s" where the new verses start.

--Megs<3--

still in co.

Soo people. Yeahh i'm still in colorado. Not that you would miss me or anything, :P
I got a hold of my great grandpas computer, tehe. I wrote a post the other day about my trip, but i deleted it because i decided you would hear about it anyway. I'll bet anything that he comes home later and gets mad because "something has gone wrong with the computer" and i was the last one on it. Shocking, I know. I seem to think that it's all in his head...but anyway. Everyone (meaning all of the family that doesn't already live here) is gone, and i'm still here for another week. I'll be home next thursday at like 6pm or something like that. Another stupid plane ride. Oh well. I've been really bored since everyone has left so i've been working on the polyvore thing a lot because i really have nothing else to do. So i'll pretty much be doing a ton of those, or atleast thinking about ideas for it. Oh, and while i'm here...my ipod is like my best friend because it keeps me occupied :]. I thought i would share something amusing with you...it's better when i actually tell you, but again, i have nothing else to do. So. The other day one of my cousins, Sophia, she's 8, was sitting on the couch and she had her cousin Sienna on her lap. She was like bouncing her legs with Sienna sitting on them, facing her, and she was singing "this is the way the horsey rides, the horsey rides, the horsey rides etc..." Not so bad right? Well then she starts singing "this is the way the mommy rides, the mommy rides, the mommy rides etc..." YEAH so i'm not really sure if you understand...or if you even read this stupid post, but i found that terribly disturbing. Like really. Maybe i'm the only one that would think bad thoughts about that, which is most likely true, but still. I shared it and now i'm ready to move on...with lyrics. I absolutely love this song, it's called Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade...youu should listen to it:


Share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
because its cold outside cold outside its cold outside
share with me the secrets that you kept in
because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside

and your slowly shaking finger tips
show that your scared like me so
let's pretend we're alone
and I know you may be scared
and I know were unprepared
but I don't care

Tell me tell me
what makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
impossible.


I don't know why i like this song, but i do. And this just came to mind when i was deleting the last post...i read some of the other ones and i didn't delete them but they were pretty stupid and i was complaining about nothing, i was clearly in a bad mood when i wrote those but sorry about thattt. They don't really matter, so it doesn't matter if you read them or not. And if you did then ignore it i guess. This is a long post kinda, so imma stop now :]

megss<3

adiosss

Alrighty kiddo's i'm in a good mood kind of, so that means no complaining haha. well maybe that's not funny. maybe it is. who knows. wjrhflijkfne ok so i'm leaving for colorado today! but the sad part is that i'm gone for 3 weeks. people better call me while i'm gone. and there's not really a point in me posting this, because i think most of you know that i'm leaving. but uh, anywhooo imma miss you guysss<3 ...!


im drawing a blank and can't remember how to say goodbye in french so ill just say adios<3
...yeaaaaaa i'm cool.

gonna miss this...eventually

So i haven't updated in a while...clearly...so i think i should. My week at camp was not really my idea of a vacation. In other words, i would have much rather stayed home and hung out with pepole. But um..anywho. I'm like annoyed right now because i said something to my aunt and it's like...i cant say something without everyone hearing it eventually. And it got me into an argument. And my grandma keeps telling me that i "blurt things out" when i shouldn't. I think she's wrong...because it's me. I'm the type of person who says what they want, and doesnt give a shit what people think about it. I care too much about what people think of me...but really only how i look. Shouldn't be that way, but it is. My point being, that i think she wants me to change but um..HELLO, no-can-do. Unless of course it was for myself, then i could do it but i'm good for now. I'm sarcastic a little bit too much and some people think it's funny, but most people take it offensively and i really wish it wouldnt be that way but it's just how i am. I kind of hate it. But if you're going to be my friend, i do think you should know that half the time i'm kidding...so yea. It's going to be a good life. Eventually. I know it. Well, not that my life is bad, it's just little things like this that can make all the difference. We got a longgg way to go. But you know what? I'm not rushing it. There's a song called You're Gonna Miss This by trace adkins. And this part of the song is soooo totally true, and it gets me thinking.

You're gonna miss this

You're gonna want this back

You're gonna wish these days

Haden't gone by so fast...

Because i know when i'm like 25 and maybe getting married or something, i'm going to "miss" being young like a lot of people. And it scares me?

Yeppp bye kiddos<3