Spinning with my shadow

So pretty much the band Lifehouse is my new obsession. Because you know i have nothing to do besides crew and homework, so youtube is an answer and i listened to like all of their songs, and every single one of them means something to me. I'm just going to list some of them that are absolutely amazing<3

Take Me Away
Broken
Blind
Spin
Hanging By a Moment (<3)
Whatever It Takes

...there are several moreeee, but i have nothing else to talk about so i'll end with:

I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know, where I'll be
Than be alone and convinced that i know

When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And i wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when i found you
And i wouldn't change a thing
No, you and i wouldn't change a thing

Some of the song "Spin" cause the rest is kinda not related to me but i still love this song and i guess i'm done now..

I don't even know, and i wrote it. Someone tell me?

Sooo, I really don't have anything to write about...really. It's like almost 11 so i can't really think, but i guarantee that nothing interesting has happened that's worth writing about. But i typed in "abstract" in google andi found this picture. I only like it because it doesnt mean anything unless you make it. Kind of like life...things happen and you choose if they matter or not, it's your life, they either impact you or they don't. Obviously this picture isn't going to impact anyone because, well it's a picture. But if you say the white is Him and the rest is your heart, then you could make it mean something. I know, that does sound ridiculous. This brings me to another point, kind of not regarding the picture. I'm starting to go to youth group because i want to understand everything..i mean two of my really good friends are involved with God and everything. Last time i just sat there and didn't participate and people may have thought i didn't care, but it takes knowledge to ask a question, and right now i'm just there to listen and perhaps learn something. That's my goal. But i hope you know it's not easy for me to do this because i wasn't brought up going to church...i mean i went every sunday but it didn't mean anything to me and now i wish it had, but i can try and make up for it. While i'm writing this, i can't understand if i'm going to youth group because i want to, or because i know i should. I think it's more of me knowing i should, but maybe it can turn into me actually wanting to go, that would be another goal i guess. And nowwww i'min trouble for being on the computer this late and i doubt anyone will care about this but i needed something to write about. For now, now that i read this over, it seems like a bunch of nonsense and when i see people getting into the hymns (i think thats what the music in the church is called?) i'm like wow, ok, freak, but it's nothing against them, i just can't get myself to be that way. Cause like i said...i wasn't brought up like that. Goal #3. Ok now i'm really done.

<3meghan

All at once.

And all at once the crowd begins to sing

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
(I wish someone would want me I wish someone would need me)
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
(I wish that that someone will take me for who i am and not compare me to something that's nothing)

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
(Can i soon be someone's "right one" that they've been trying to find? Atleast for a little while..)
Where no questions cross your mind
(And not a doubt in that one's mind that i am theirs. Alteast for a little while..)
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
(But i wont dread all the days passing by without them)
Much longer for you to sort it out
(Those are the days that i use to take in and sort out my pwn thoughts before i become part of someone else's life. Atleast for a little while).

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
(Is someone going to want me is someone going to need me)
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
(Could i have been someone's and not known it, and now it's gone? I don't think so. Not yet atleast).
(But i don't want that to happen once i find that "right one" which i don't expect quite yet. But i do expect someone that could potentially be that right one. Atleast for a little while).


And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

^I know this blog isn't right. For me to be writing about this stuff...atleast in this way. But it's hard not to.

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time


I LOVE this song, and in my next blog i'll write why. Maybe i'll write tomorrow. <3meghan<3

too many words, or not enough?

I've tried to balance these lives that we are living
You always feel justified but you never feel forgiving
I woke up one morning to find myself wrapped in the things I swore I'd never touch.
And here I am again trying to save what's left of you and I
So why aren't you satisfied?

I reached out, fell short
Now you're hurt, too many words
Breaking the silence
I felt it, bled it, screamed it,
It only gets worse
And it kills me what's in me too angry for us to survive
I used too many words tonight

I tried to get it right
But I was just wastin' my time
'cause you never compromised when it came to us
We struggle and fall apart we build it back to static start
The endless accusations I can't believe we made it this far.

I reached out, fell short
Now you're hurt, too many words
Breaking the silence,
I felt it, bled it, screamed it,
It only gets worse
And it kills me what's in me too angry for us to survive
I used too many words tonight

Waking alone tomorrow, has gotta be better than this




~So i just really love this song. Too Many Words by Sick Puppies. I know, weird name but they're mad good. And i guess none of it relates to me...only some lines which i bolded and then one of them is my favorite line which i made into italics and bold. but they have nothing to do with any sort of relationship...fyi. obviously that would be impossible to talk about. Oh, and "us" meaning all of us...anyone...just...us.
k byeeeee<3.

trust yourself to trust another.

Tehe, i know, miley cyrus. But her voice is so good in this song (v) and i like the lyrics. And why do i like the lyrics? Ok because it seems like it would be something that happens too often. Trusting someone not to break your heart, or even trusting someone to keep a secret. And then before you know it...it all falls apart and that person isn't even close what they were before. Sometimes it's tempting to tell someone something, even when you know you shouldn't, but you do anyway because you feel close to that person..sometimes for an unknown reason. And as far as the love thing..that's why i agree with one of the things love is, even thought it's hard to define: "Love is giving someone the power to break your heart, but trusting them not too." If you think about it, it really is...not scary...but hard to think about because we almost know that not everyone that comes into our lives is going to be trustworthy, so i think that people should trust themselves that they trust the right people (if that makes sense). If it becomes a mistake, no, we can't always fix it, but regrets shouldn't take place and we have to eventually move on. And we can't always blame ourselves for something like this happening..(i got that out of the last verse because i didn't think it had anything to do with trust, and i know that some people will sit around all mad at themselves because they don't know who to blame but their self, and that last verse just kind of reminded me to get that out there..).

<3megs

These Four Walls by Miley Cyrus :]

These four walls
They whisper to me
They know a secret
I knew they would not keep
Didn't take long for the room to fill with trust
And these four walls come down around us

It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what i meant
Now i wait for a break in the silence, 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

It's hard now to let you be
I won't make excuses
I've made my peace
Didn't take long for me to lose the trust
'Cause these four walls weren't strong enough

It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what i meant
Now i wait for a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

Yeah, it's difficult
Watching us fade
Knowing it's all my fault
My mistake
Yeah, it's difficult
Letting you down
Knowing it's all my fault
You're not around

Leave the memories..alone?

So i pretty much love writing down lyrics for you guys, to my favorite songs<3




So here I am with my thoughts of you
And this world I've left for me
Stoic faces when I think of you
And how I once believed
So now you call me, but you know I won't let you through
I've myself to decieve

So leave the memories alone
I don't want to see
The way it is, as to how it used to be
Leave the memories alone, don't change a thing
And I'll hold you here in my memory

So I find me in your garden now
A sad smile for the scene
And all the flowers that we planted now
Taken by the weeds
But in my minds eye, you know they still bloom for me
They stand tall there, in that summer breeze

Leave the memories alone
I don't want to see
The way it is, as to how it used to be
Leave the memories alone, don't change a thing
And I'll just hold you here in my memory

You'll never change
You'll never change
You will never change



This doesn't apply to me a lot..well kind of. Maybe some of you can figure it out.
Megs<3